Hello Warner Springs

Well, last night was quite frankly was the second longest night since we have been out here. The 35 mph winds just completely battered me all night long. 7 laughed multiple times as his freestanding Durston tent ate it like a champ.

The combination of wet ground, small stakes and just relentless winds all night long I think I re pitched my tent three times. One thing that’s become clear my sleep on this trail is going to suffer. At least initially.

A positive though throughout the night each time I would get out of my tent I would look at the moon, although we missed the lunar eclipse due to the bad weather the night before. The moon tonight is still super bright. It’s felt like a full moon for 10 days now.

I wake up at 6:30 before the sunrise and start my day with a scenic breakfast. 7 hears me rummaging around like a Mouse and decides to join me. It’s F’n go time.

Weather clearing up

Today’s plan is to camp a little past Warner Springs. I have about 17 miles to get there and it’s looking good. A steep climb to start the day and then all down hill through Warner Springs Meadow. I pass by the 100 mile marker and get even more stoked. It only took 98 miles to get my first blister! And it’s a doozy.

100 Miles In

So far, this has been the prettiest section I have seen. Rolling hills, cows and turkeys everywhere. At one point they were actually in the way. Will they move? Do I move?

Mooooo

Before I make it to Warner Springs, after Warner Springs Meadow I pass by a famous rock formation Eagle Rock. My dad’s always talking about rocks or trees. He would absolutely love this spot. “hey Chris look at that erratic” is all I kept hearing in my head. And wow was that truly awesome. I sat with tears in my eyes completely alone for miles. He doesn’t know it but it was a moment for him. A happy moment, a moment of complete inner peace.

I decided to yard sale my gear and let it all dry out while I was there to take in some extra time. I fear walking too fast and missing the small details like this. Life is short, and I took the entire year off. While I’m relaxing there 7 and Wolf both arrive and I was able to get a picture.

Eagle Rock

After packing back up its three or four more miles of absolutely gorgeous rolling fields and next thing you know I’m in the Warner Springs community center charging up my phone. The community is putting on an event for PCT Hikers. I run into Legend again as he’s following the bubble north. It’s always appreciated to feel the love from the community.

Horse Patrol

While checking in at the community center the gentleman notices my accent. He points me to the wall, I get to stick the pin in the map for Boston. 2025s first Massachusetts hiker to come through this town on the PCT. I’ll take it! And then I’ll take a nice cold can of Sprite too sir.

After I finished my Sprite I tossed it in recycling and asked some random guy if he’d give us a hitch up the road to the gas station. Almost 6$ gas prices. Thank goodness I run on gummy worms, snickers bars and ramen noodles.

Gasolina

Resupply was for roughly for six days. It was honestly scarce inside the store, I expect to be really hungry in 4 days before we get to Paradise Valley Cafe. While at PVC I’m also going to be picking up a new pair of shoes, micro spikes and my ice axe for climbing Mt San Jacinto that my dad mailed me last week. After Paradise Valley Cafe it’s then 2 more days before I get to the town of Idylwild.

I think I’m going to take a zero in Idylwild. A zero is a day off. I need to rest my feet, pick up some green, and take a good long shower. I also just hear it’s a pretty cool town that takes care of its hikers. If it’s like Julian I’m sure I’ll enjoy it but we will see how I feel when I get there though. Everyone knows I can’t sit still. I like to rummage.

After I say goodbye to beautiful people of Warner Springs, it was 6 1/2 more miles to my babbling Aqua Caliente creekside tent site. The winds tonight are calm. That’s a win. I heat up my dinner and eat it quickly, tonight I need to look at my foot before it’s dark. Is it getting better? No. But does it hurt? Also no. Ok you’re fine.

Quick J for the bones after dinner with 7 and Wolf and I slide into my tent for the night. The temps drop quickly and I bundle up inside my quilt. Time to drift off into dream land.

Agua Caliente

I plan to wake up before the other two to get a head start. They don’t know it, but with my feet broken I have to walk slower but longer. It’s roughly 17 miles to Mikes place and 3,200’ vertical up. Mikes place is a trail angels place where hikers can go and hang out, refresh, and kill some time before moving on. I read on Facebook that Mike’s place was having water issues a few weeks ago, but I’m hoping that is cleared up by now. Tomorrow will be a long day and I’m mentally ready for it.

Scissors Crossing

After a couple nights in Julian to wait out the snow storm we decided we couldn’t wait anymore. The people of Julian have been absolutely amazing. From giving us free food and drinks to even discounting our hotel room, the hospitality definitely earns good reviews and it’s super appreciated. I was lucky to even drop my laundry off after 10 days in the same clothes and they took care of it for me.

Wolf knows a guy Professor from the last time they hiked the Tahoe Rim Trail who lives local. He said he would give us a hitch back to scissors crossing in the morning to get back on trail from Julian. The weather forecast for tomorrow AM (Friday) looks promising so we are definitely going to be motivated to move fast.

Type 2 Fun

Weather forecasts like this I would honestly rather be blind to. But, this couple day section is definitely one where I’ll have to embrace the suck.

I wake up around 6 and take a last shower and get ready. Seven wants to hit the Miners Diner at 8 when it opens because our hitch gets here at 9. Big breakfast guy that guy. The trail angel who’s giving us the ride goes by the name Professor. He pulled up at 8:45 in a blue Subaru.

There’s 5 of us today. Myself Wolf, Seven, and we picked up Anita and Dirk from Germany. They are not “together” but when they arrived in the US they had obviously a lot in common both being from Germany, so they started hiking together.

We cram into professors Impreza like it’s a clown car and take the 25 minute ride to the trail. 15 minutes in Wolf asks if I’m going to need a Zofran haha. Long windy roads, snow on the ground, a guy called Professor driving, 5 speed Subaru! Nah I’m good today. Honestly why I skipped breakfast.

We get to the trail head and the sun is thinking about shining. The Professor tells us it’s about a 3 mile up and then smooth sailing to the water cache 14 miles in. I take 2.5 liters of water with me thinking it’s raining. I won’t drink as much with my rain cover on. It’s a hassle to get in and out of my bag in the rain.

2.5 miles in I turn and look at the switchbacks I just crushed, absolutely beautiful. Single track the whole way up, nice and windy. I make it to the water cache and meet another hiker Juan from Mexico. He said he started March 1st but was really taking his time. He had been at the cache for 2 days waiting out the weather.

I grab 2 liters for the next bunch of miles while I make some ramen noodles to mentally warm up. As soon as I finished my noodles Seven walks up for his water and then I’m back walking again. The cache is about a mile down a small hill off trail. The way back up that hill felt very heavy.

Donate to the Venmo to support us hiker trash

I get to the cross roads of the trail and there’s a trail log. I sign in “Mouse” and remember the vape pen I found 5 miles back in my pocket. Randomly I hear someone yelling did anyone find a red vape pen! Yes I yell back! I dropped it in the hiker box. I couldn’t believe I even found the owner and could drop that weight while here. That was nice too, I didn’t want to carry the trash. Nicotine? No thank you.

With the rain picking up Seven and I really start to get moving, we are looking to go another six more miles before we set up camp. We’re expecting it to be an early night with the weather. I don’t think I stopped over the next six miles and next thing you know I’m pitching my tent on the wet ground.

I spent 10 minutes finding rocks, I suspect I will need them tonight to secure my stakes in the soft sand. With winds whipping in my Duplex tent is going to get battered all night. It’s an ear plugs night.

After pitching my tent I decide to do something I NEVER do back home. I make my dinner inside knowing there is no bears in So Cal. Tonight I finished off the noodles I started for lunch, little margarita pepperoni tossed in for kicks and then it’s off to bed.

Dinner for one

As I lay in my tent listening to the wind pick up. Seven and I talk about the pros and cons of his tent vs mine. Both work well, both well made. But tonight I think I’ll find out why a free standing tent may have been easier on the PCT. Night night folks

Hauser Creek -> Julian

Chilly but much warmer than last night. 4:45AM, I am startled by the sound of something shhhhhzzzzip.  7’s tent zipper opening as he goes pee. I wake up with the feeling I over slept. What time is it? Searching for my watch in the dark. Feeling like I had somewhere to be, today is day 75 that “I’m unemployed and selectively homeless”. I have nowhere to be, this is exactly what I want and need right now.

Today’s goal, a short day, I’m not sure if Wolf was right on the day light savings thing, but between 6-7AM sunrises and being in a canyon it would be a while before it was truly light out.  Heading north the sun will be in my face the entire climb to Lake Morena. I suspect that will be a trend for the entire trail. It makes me wonder about getting darker sunglasses.

Sun rise over the crest

I slowly and methodically pack up my camp, sleeping quilt/bag on bottom, various soft things in the middle, and my food on very top. Since my tents still wet, that goes on the outside of my pack today. I segregate things I’ll need access to and bury the things I won’t need till tonight. It’s only 5 short miles to Lake Morena.  I pack 2.5ish liters of water knowing I’ll be in the sun on the ascent. I shoot for 1 liter for every 4 miles, but today I carry a little extra to try and catch up for yesterday. 

The long windy switchbacks were relentless. Coming from hiking mainly NH, switchbacks suck.  I think they kind’ve make me dizzy. I get my first glimpse of the Lake and next think you know I’m settling into the campground mid day to dry my stuff out.

Lake Morena

After setting up my stuff next to the trail angel Legend and his crew. I hang out for a bit and meet the folks who set up to help and guide new hikers. They ask me my plans and where I’m from, we exchange info and my stuff dries out nice. They laugh when I tell them my story, my career, family, etc. A few of them being retired from engineering tell me “kid you don’t know it yet but you’re life just changed”…

In the last 18 months, they truly have no idea just much that was already true.

I get a text from Wolf, they were about an hour behind me the whole time. Wolf decided to skip the dry out and head straight to town for a burger at the Malt Shop. I should’ve did the same but hey, being dry was more exciting than fed to me. I packed back up, said thanks and goodbye to the Lake Morena crew and walked the half mile road walk to the malt shop, 7 was there also.

A quick cheese burger and fries, I initially said it was terrible. But I rethought about that on the walk back. I rethought hard about my negativity. I said to my self that burger was terrible in comparison to the 5 star burgers I’ve had in my life, but that burger was 5 stars in comparison to the burgers I have in my food bag now.

Wolf says to keep it up and they’ll call me half empty instead of Mouse. This trip for me, outside of the physical struggle will also be a mental one. A fight to flip negativity away, another mile in that burger was no longer terrible.

That burger hit the spot.

A few more miles behind me I start to become bored. The terrain hasn’t changed much and it’s been single track trail along windy slopes. As I speed walk to save time on the flats, I notice some trail love. I commend the folks stopping long enough to put this shape together. In the sun I won’t stop long enough to pee. I’ve perfected walking and peeing at the same time now.

Love your self

A little further and we walk through an established campground. There’s some people there with fruit, beer, ice cream, and things like cleaning towels, they are planning on hiking the trail in 2026. They’re paying it forward now for good future karma. I appreciate it. I think when I’m done I’ll probably spend a week wherever my favorite section was to give back.

I crush a halo orange and took a gala apple for the road walk. It’s roughly six more miles past Kitchen Creek till our next tent site. I worry about the time it’ll get dark and start moving! 7 and Wolf stop at kitchen creek for water, I pushed on thinking I don’t need it or want to make the .8 mile detour.

I decide to call it quits early about 3.5 miles before I planned to. I set up my tent and call it a night alone. A quick mental battle of did I make the right decision ensues. Could I keep pushing? I accept my decision and own it. In the game of thru hiking you win some and you lose some. I expect to lose many. And I’m fine with that as long as I’m safe to play again. HYOH (Hike Your Own Hike)

Clear sky night

The next morning I rise early and push forward through a mist. I’ve become separated from 7 and Wolf. I couldn’t keep up with their pace yesterday. We intend on meeting back up in Julian for a zero day. So my plan is to put my head down, my phone away and get my legs moving. Main motivation over the next two or three days? To get out of this weather pattern and to my next purchase, a new raincoat.

OR Helium- ya let me down. 👎🏼👎🏼

As I climb up to 6,000’ elevation Mt Laguna is absolutely beautiful. Of course it’s colder at higher elevation and it reminds me of back home, tall pine trees fill the view and the air smells crystal clean. My dad would be here saying ‘these trees wait hundreds of years for a chance to sprout up and finally grow. They wait for the tallest tree to fall for their shot at seeing some sky. And then it’s their chance to shine!’ Most of these trees are probably hundred of years old.

As I continue on for some reason I want Mt Laguna to be near Laguna Beach. Or somehow related. Newsflash, it’s not. As I stare at the blank tree before me I sing the Laguna Beach song by Natasha Bedingfield and think back to 2017. The last time I was in Laguna Beach. My X and I spent Valentine’s Day weekend at Surf N Sands after a week road tripping So Cal. We had dinner, watched sunset, listened to the waves crash all night with the balcony door open and then had breakfast at the Orange inn the next morning. Ahhhh to think we were just kids.

I would crush that breakfast right now.

Quick resupply in Laguna and roughly 35 miles till Scissors crossing. The trail starts to descend from the mountains back into the desert. I start to mentally prepare to much longer water carries as the desert will be just as I expect.

I hitch hike from Scissors crossing into Julian. I plan to take my first few days off in Julian. I check into the Julian Lodge which is a PCT hiker friendly spot and I swing by Two Foot Adventures to buy a rain coat. Talking with Mary the owner we have a lot in common. She was an aerospace engineer who one day said F this and quit. Never looked back.

Julian Lodge

While in town I grab some resupply snacks, rehydrate my kidneys and meet back up with 7 and Wolf. We plan to grab a free piece of PCT Pie at Moms pie and take much needed showers before getting back on trail in a day or two.

MOMS
Pick Your Pie

My plans for town stays is really fluid right now. Initially going into my hike I said I wanted to experience the small communities as much as I could. Knowing I will be getting to the Sierras really early I have time to burn. Also knowing a lot of the communities I probably won’t come back to again unless I hike the PCT a second time. The trail community so far is really re establishing my faith in people and I think I needed that. Being from Boston it’s rare people are friendly, willing to help, and it’s extremely rare I get to see a town with no one in it. It makes me miss living in Sanbornton where I lived a slower lifestyle pace, and helped out any neighbor who asked.

In MA big fences make great neighbors.

Julian at 7PM tonight is a ghost town but my second burger of this trail was absolutely delicious.

Julian Cafe

After our food Seven and Wolf say they want to do some drinking tonight. Off to the VFW we go, we heard the VFW is the only place in town we can get a mean Margarita.

Julian VFW

Sitting inside and looking at all the WWII and Vietnam memorabilia makes me say damn these guys had it much worse than I do right now. Little rain is nothing to complain about.

CLEEF/Campo

Well that was a ride. Got a hitchhike from a guy Eddie and his son when running some errands, I had time to kill and wanted to see Campo. Eddie said he was a rancher and was in the area picking up a new water tank for his son’s property. They bought some acreage and were going to build a small home on it for him. But first in the desert they needed water. I told him how I dream of having acreage and growing my own crops on it. We swap contact info to keep in touch, according to his instagram he’s a marihuana rancher. Kudos Eddie, hell of a product, we’ll get along great. Will definitely take you up on your offer to visit when I’m in your neck of the woods.

Storm rolling in

After arriving and setting up my tent in the field at CLEEF, it took about 20 minutes for the sky to open up and to absolutely pour down rain. While raining the temps plummeted to the low 20s. I tossed on my winter hat, gloves and prepared to ride it out. I now realize I made the mistake back home at the last minute of bringing my 20°F sleeping quilt instead of my 10° F which was also now soaked. I said maybe I’ll ship my 10 to the Sierras.

Low 20s in the desert

In backpacking staying dry and warm is key. Let’s just say this was arguably one of the longest nights I’ve had in a while. I tossed and turned, rubbed my hands together for friction heat, did jumping jacks to stay warm and even walked a mile to get my core temp up before getting back into my tent. Overall it was good and bad.

Tent so frozen it didn’t need trekking poles anymore

Good to get that out of the way, let me see how bad it can be day one so I can further mentally prepare to embrace the suck. The bad side, I froze all night long. Post 2021 after having Covid. I just don’t do well in the cold anymore, I use to LOVE winter. Would be outside grilling in 0°F in a T Shirt. But now in 2025’s time frame, no exaggeration I shivered all night long.

I ended up saying F it at 3:45AM and waited for the sun to rise laying on a bench tucked in all my clothes, 3 pairs of socks deep in my sleeping bag. My Oura ring thought I was working out all night from shivering.

All in all, less then 2 hours of sleep for the first night

Zero REM

I open my eyes again, this time the sun has finally risen. It’s now time to get up, stretch, have something warm, get ready, thaw/dry out my tent and quilt and get moving. The people at CLEEF put on a nice pancake breakfast with fruit to fuel the hikers before the leave. We make small talk, discuss what to expect and share plans about where we want to camp next all while packing up.

One last photo as a group and it’s time to go.

Seven to my right, Wolf Slayer in front of me.

A small group today. The PCTA gives out 50 permits per day, so my expectation was at most I would see 50 people today. Also PCT hiking season officially kicks off March 1st so we are some of the first people on trail. After a final photo for the memories it was bathroom time, me being a very normal AM routine pooper, I take one peek inside and easily decided to skip the flush toilet, I’ll dig a cat hole a few miles in instead. Probably for the best to get use to that.

Do better people. Like how?

The Southern terminus is literally at the Mexican border wall. When I walked up to the wall almost immediately border patrol arrived. Their infrared equipment detects and picks up movement at the border. We were told illegal crossings with Chinese nationals have picked up within this specific area, their journey is after flying to Ecuador from China to bypass needing a Visa they allegedly start hiking through the Darien gap between Panama and Columbia. After they hike the Darien Gap protected by paying off the Columbian Narcos for safety they jump on a plane or train to northern Mexico where they cross the border illegally in Tecate by using various coyotes usually connected to the Mexican Cartel.

Tecate MX is about 12 miles along the border wall from here and with everything going on politically, it doesn’t seem to be lightening up any time soon. As someone who’s worked on IR/OR/optical systems for over a decade in the defense industry as an engineering director. I know exactly how their systems work, and they work well.

Pretty cool.

My thoughts on Border Patrol if I was honest, BP interests me, when I was living in New Hampshire I would see Border Patrol near the Canadian border when grouse or deer hunting in Pittsburg NH. Besides for fish and game wardens, only Border Patrol would walk right up to you as you held a rifle and say hey how’s it going? Clearly in New Hampshire however, there is significantly less “migrant” foot traffic.

I think I’d like to work for border patrol, I love to be remote out in the middle of nowhere, I like being independent, I’d like it not to kick people out of the US or be a “asshole agent of the wall.” But to actually help people, I’m a product of immigrants my self. Granted Sicilian immigrants but I’m no better than anyone else who wants to come here for IMO “ very expensive freedom.” I can understand the desire to provide a better life for their kids.

Border Patrol- Campo CA

Back home, besides for my direct friends who are cops… I have a “fuck the police” attitude because they’re straight up corrupt. Is it a shocker as a Sicilian how I was raised? I consider it more a product of experiences. Show your respect, & keep your mouth shut. The police are there to catch a paycheck and abuse overtime while protected by their union, not to help you, in Boston you notice that immediately when they arrive and you get blamed for even calling them. But besides that 90’s NWA F the Police tangent after hiking in this desert, and seeing where these people are having to go, seeing the emergency signals knowing I couldn’t have survived without every ounce of water I carried with me, it’s clear they need help whether they stay or get sent home.

No one should die in the desert

Most of these people or families come here with literally nothing on their back, I do get rules are rules and yes as an American I lean a little more firm on the fact we are flat out full….. But being a human being and not a dickhead and having compassion is possible in EVERY aspect of life.

Border Patrol- What are you doing here?

Me– Hiking the PCT sir.

Border Patrol– Oh yeah? Move along now.

He wasn’t impressed.

Honestly I think it’s pretty climbable

After waiting for the Border Patrol Agent to stop awkwardly mean mugging and leave, I joke around testing the stability of the wall, I crack a few Local 7 iron worker jokes, and I take a piss through the wall into Mexico. I was technically in two countries at the same time. I cross back and touch the terminus. The official southern most point of the PCT.

There was another person already there and we swapped phones to take pictures for one another and both signed the log book. Our official start.

I started walking north with two others hikers who already had trail names… 7 from rural Canada and Wolf Slayer from Washington. I met both of them the night prior

Wolf Slayer got their name for doing some crazy stuff on their last thru hike of the Colorado trail. Prior to that was the AZT. Wolf’s resume in hiking is actually pretty extensive the more we talk.

7 like me is new to thru hiking. He’s backpacked a bunch like I have, but this is the first time he’ll be out for months. And then there is me, I don’t have a trail name yet but at mile four 7 tells me he’s going to start calling Boston (me) “Mouse”

Why Mouse? Because he said he heard me rummaging around in my tent the entire night like a mouse searching for food. Was he sleeping, or warm like I thought? Nope. But I guess with ear plugs in I didn’t noticed how loud I am? I don’t know if I’ll keep it yet. Day 1 seems too early, but hey maybe it’s meant to be. I definitely was rummaging around all night.

First PCT Sign

The trail starts gradually up hill. We covered roughly ten hot miles in the sun before Wolf tosses me some sunblock.

“Hey Boston not to nurse you like this but put some sunblock on your legs” -Wolf

I forgot when I hike I wear short shorts. Who wears short shorts? I wear short shorts.

2021s Trip to Colorado. Hello altitude sickness and legs

Good call. My pale skin can’t handle the Mexi/Cali sun. I remember I’m only half Sicilian, and with my Irish mother fighting skin cancer this year… I get the hint. There are zero reasons I should mess around and think I’m tougher than the sun, who needs to add any more reasons for me to get Melanoma later on in life? Owning a boat and being “sun” lazy in my 20s, I’ve already done my damage so I say not I as I applied a thick layer of sunblock.

As I apply the sunblock to my legs, ears, nose, face and hands, I think of my pasty pale friend Pat L, I know he’d be pumped to see the wall, being from MA, none of us ever have. It’s also his and his twin sisters birthdays next week. (Happy Saint Patrick’s Day) I laugh to my self about how he got sunburned through a shirt out on my boat that time. He’d absolutely die out here.

Over/under 35minutes. I’d take the under all day.

After another mile or so and I began a steep decent to Hauser Creek. I’ve lost 7 and Wolf as they are much faster than I am. Sunblock stinging my eyes as the sweat drips down my face. In the distance I can see and literally feel the high voltage power lines above me.

That high voltage line makes me think of a friend back home who installs those for our power company National Grid. I haven’t seen him in a few years and I hope all is well with him and the family. Being physically this far away and still feeling the electricity. I’m all set with that. That’s exactly why he crushes it though. You’re an absolute beast and a good dude Brent.

Estimated 200$ usage, 750$ delivery charge I bet.

At this point it’s been an 11 mile water carry, no sleep, 32lb bag, let’s F’ing go! Get stoked. I arrive at a makeshift campsite and find 7 and Wolf already there setting up, it’s littered with Poison Oak. And I mean littered with Posion Oak! One thing I’m good at, identifying poison ivy. Being a hunter/fisherman you don’t mess with leaves 3 of a kind and shiny. NEVER. My dad use to get it every summer as a kid he said. Him and Uncle Pete’s pain and suffering was enough for me to skip messing with any shiny leaves.

Tonight’s a night I will try hard to not leave my tent.

Day Light savings time

We sit down on a log at dinner after setting up our homes. I feel a little nauseous after the miles, the zero humidity is killing my hydration, I’ve eaten nothing real but snacks, slim Jim’s, electrolytes chews and 6 liters of water today. Wolf (a nurse at home) gives me an anti nausea pill and a pep talk to get me through dinner.

7 and I debate how long to cold soak ramen noodles for. Over/under 1 hour? I say under. I spot a trend in my gambling.

After dinner we enjoy a few minutes of small talk. 7 says he has a question for my Boston accent after hearing me say “Starbucks”. I tell him for a Bostonian, my accent is mild! But both these folks being from the west coast. I’m truly a character to them, a rambling bumbling clown whose accent comes out only on certain words.

His question-If I could only eat 1 food every meal out here what would it be… My answer to him was that’s definitely not the question I want to think about right now. He laughs, I laugh, it feels good to have a feel good moment when you feel sick. A quick poke of a nice joint after eating some food to ease the muscles and we slip into our respective homes for the night.

Hauser Creek

We lay in our tents in the dark (at 6:30PM) and talk to each other from 8 feet away. The three of us are hitting it off and looking out for each other. This is how a tramily starts or a trail family. Like your friends, you don’t pick them they just show up one day and never leave.

I rummage around my tent and put everything in its place. Tonight’s daylight savings time and the three of us debate what time to wake up and whether it affects us or not. Wolf says it will affect us, I say times a construct that if we don’t have watches on and just rise and set with the sun it doesn’t matter?

I honestly don’t know who’s right, but what’s important is we’re having fun. We want to be hiking! I take a moment to suck in the present, but look forward to June and long days. The solstice is my favorite day of the year but that’s an eternity away. And with that I know comes the heat.

I roll over and pull my quilt up tight, say good night to Chesty Puller wherever he is and pass out listening to the gentle gurgle of the creek and someones snoring.

San Diego to Campo CA.

After months of preparation. And by “preparation,” I mostly mean doubling down on Spanish lessons, listening to reggae, devouring trash food, and brain rotting Seinfeld for the 10,000th time on Netflix.

Alright, alright, I know, sounds intense. But physically, outside of the gym, I stuck to my yoga routine and carried my 35-pound pack everywhere to get used to the weight again. This bag is my lifeline, holding everything I need to survive, and I respect that fully.

Hot Yoga Wellington NZ

Mentally, I’ve braced myself for the challenges ahead by accepting one simple truth: no matter how much I prepare, I can’t control everything. The weather, injuries, unforeseen obstacles, those are out of my hands. My plan? Embrace it all with laughter and a smile, make educated decisions, weigh risk against reward, and trust that the rest is exactly the journey I’m looking for.

I’ve always believed that nothing truly prepares your body for hiking like hiking itself. But back home, it’s not hiking season—it’s ski season, and a mediocre one at that

2017 was a good season

Now, my first real task? No, not surviving the brutal permit system, dialing in my gear, or saying those bittersweet goodbyes like that last hug, that final airport kiss. After that, I need to get from San Diego to Campo, CA, the official starting point of the Pacific Crest Trail. The Southern Terminus.

Campo is about an hour and a half by car from San Diego, but not having a car, I decided after getting here to take my time, spend a couple of nights in the city, soak up the beach, catch up with friends, and handle a few last-minute errands before disappearing into the wild. It was worth it, a little calm before the storm.

SD->Campo

After my goodbyes and one last view of the Pacific Ocean, the first leg of my bus journey began. Or so I thought.

As I packed up to take the bus at the last minute I scrapped it. I don’t think I’ll make it to the station in time, I’m usually always early, in fact, in usually viciously early for everything, but for once I was late and it only runs twice a day. I send a text to an Uber driver I met the day before. Jim, a Navy vet who’s now retired, lives in the area and worked his corporate career post military for Hitachi. He was nice enough to tell me if I needed anything give him a call. I called and he was there a few hours later.

Thank you Jim, I was dreading that bus ride.

62 minutes and I was at the Campo Green store. A quick purchase of some gas and jerky and I’m off up the street to the post office, I mailed my headphones, crocs and some other things I simply don’t want to carry to my friend Dylan in Washington. They weren’t as heavy at home.

Dylan doesn’t know it yet but his ass is picking me up when I get there, I’m crashing on his couch, eating his food and surfing his boat for a week come August. Life is and will be good.

Campo Green Store

Finally I arrive at CLEEF, pitch my tent, and go sit down, crack open a cold can of Sprite, a crushed stroopwaffle in hand, around a fire place with 4-5 other hikers, sharing stories of where we came from, how unemployed we are, what our spouses think of this and questioning if we are F’in crazy.

Camp Lockett Event and Equestrian Facility

As the convo continued I think of back home, a tear drops from my eye. I’m mentally toast. I look to my left and see a older person with a face of pure excitement, they just finished the AZT to my right a guy younger than me I’d guess mid 20s, white as a ghost.. I quickly learn and realize the fear we have is normal, and we are in this together.

The trail community is strong in the thru hiking world.

Tomorrow morning, I’ll wake before sunrise, savor one last use of a flush toilet, brush my teeth, text my mother not to worry, and then start my walk to Canada.

Northbound.

NOBO.

One Day in San Diego: 

The PCT journey begins. But first a day in San Diego.

After months of planning, packing, and obsessing over my gear lists, I finally made it. My PCT adventure is real now. Have finally got to San Diego with just one more day to get my last-minute errands done before heading to Campo, where the real journey begins.

I started the morning with a solid breakfast, something I normally don’t do. I usually skip breakfast but I need to savor every meal I can before a long stretch of bars, ramen, and gross instant potatoes. I really haven’t eaten the last few days due to stress. Also have been running a mild fever, and am praying I’m not getting sick… But I’ll shall stay positive and knowing San Diego has no shortage of great food, I needed to eat. I kept it simple, grabbing a breakfast burrito from a local spot. 

Fuel for the errands

Then, it was time for the final final prep. I had a mental checklist:

✅ Pick up stove fuel (couldn’t bring one with me)

✅ Grab a few fresh snacks for the first few days

✅ Double-check my resupply strategy

✅ Make sure everything fits in my pack (spoiler: it barely did, sandals are a problem though)

Errands done, I had some time to enjoy the city I once tried so hard to move to. It felt strange knowing that the last four times I’ve been to SD I’ve stayed in the same hotel and that in less than 24 hours, I’d be walking into the desert with nothing but what I could carry, my hotel would be on my back.

I texted some friends in the area to catch up and I took a walk along the water, in my opinion the weather this week is miserable here for “sunny San Diego”.. I visited the beach I once accepted a job offer at in 2012, soaked in the last bit of coastal air and sat on a bench to enjoy some needed peace and quiet after a few hard mental days.

Was woken up to emergency sirens over night

As the day wound down, I sat on the balcony overlooking the ocean watching the sunset through the rain . Once the sun set I made my way to my last comfortable night sleep for a while, a nice king sized bed all to my self. One last night in a real bed with real sheets, real blankets and real pillows.  Knowing what weathers coming I’m happy I’m off trail tonight.

Set the AC to 66°F, pull the covers up and that’s that.

Tomorrow at sun up it begins. Assess the rain and figure out how to get to Campo. 

Hot Topic- Anxiety

Managing and Dealing with Anxiety While Traveling

Traveling can be an incredible adventure, full of new experiences, sights, sounds, smells and cultures. But for many people including my self,  it also comes with a dose of anxiety. 

JetBlue A320

Whether it’s the stress of planning, fear of the unknown, getting sick, planes possibly crashing or any unexpected challenges along the way. Managing your travel anxiety is key to ensuring a fulfilling and enjoyable trip. 

Now luckily I will say I really only struggle with anxiety under acute circumstances. Which happens to be: the dentist, traveling and for some really weird unknown reason the barbershop.  These are three places or things that for some reason stress me the F out and make me feel anxious. 

So over the years I have googled probably 100 times of what to do. Spoke to multiple people for advice and ultimately I have just raw dogged my way through life with no meds.   

Hey it’s worked for me so far right? Yeah but that’s not ideal for everyone. Here’s my normal travel day Oura stats. Slept mediocre, got zero activity and just spent the entire day stressed out.

So other than suffering like above, if you’re in need of medication there is no shame in seeing a doctor for help. I just personally don’t like the idea of taking these types of drugs for my acute issues. Never have, never will. If you choose to avoid medication like I do here are some other things you can try.

Identify what aspects of travel make you anxious. For me it’s getting to the airport or being in other people’s cars. 

“Hi everyone, my name is Chris and I’m a control freak.” 

Here are some additional tips to help you if you suffer from travel anxiety like I do. 

1. Plan, but Leave Room for Flexibility

A well-thought-out plan can ease a lot of anxiety by eliminating uncertainties. Research your destination, book accommodations in advance, and have a rough itinerary.  Outside of your initial plan, accept that not everything will go perfectly. Leave some wiggle room in your schedule so that changes don’t throw you into panic mode.

2. Prepare for the Unknown

If unpredictability makes you nervous, have backup plans. Essentially create a bug out plan.  If you’re traveling internationally, learning a few key phrases in the local language can also help you feel more in control. 

Need help! Necesito ayuda! 

3. Manage Travel Triggers

 Honestly, weird to say but the plane could crash and my thoughts are hey sorry to my parents but my time is over.  The travel to the airport, the uber ride, getting through security, finding the gate is my trigger. So whether it’s flying, large crowds, or unfamiliar places. Once you know your triggers, you can develop strategies to cope.

4. Practice Mindfulness and Relaxation Techniques

Anxiety often thrives on overthinking and worrying about what could go wrong. Practicing mindfulness, and focusing on the present moment can help keep you grounded. Techniques like deep breathing or box breathing, progressive muscle relaxation, and visualization can help calm your nerves.

Apps like Calm or Mindspace can be great companions for guided relaxation, if you’re new to meditation these apps will walk you through where to start. Big thanks to my ex girlfriend for introducing me to Calm sleep stories five years ago.  I found putting Sleep stories on instead of the TV at bedtime very helpful.

5. Keep a Familiar Routine

While travel disrupts normal life, maintaining small parts of your routine can provide comfort. Whether it’s your morning coffee, an evening walk, or a quick workout, these familiar habits can create a sense of normalcy even in an foreign place.

For me I’ve been working on maintaining a daily/weekly yoga routine. Even after 36 hours of flying I made sure to hit a hot yoga session in New Zealand last year. When I’m back at home, you can always catch me at the Monday evening class. I also kept up with my sleep stories.

Hot tip: there’s even a multi part Pacific Crest Trail Sleep story that I’d highly recommend!

6. Stay Physically Active

Exercise is a natural stress reliever. A walk, a hike, yoga or even stretching can help release tension and boost endorphins. If you’re on a long flight or bus ride, try moving around periodically to keep your body from feeling stiff or restless and to avoid blood clots.

7. Have a Comfort Kit

Pack small items that help soothe anxiety, for me this is gum, mints, and my headphones. But for you this could be a book, journal, stress ball, herbal tea, or even a playlist of calming music. Now if you do take medication for anxiety, make you have enough for your trip and keep it easily accessible. Also, I’d recommend testing it before your flight. No one wants to be that person freaking out mid flight due to side effects from any medications. 

8. Focus on What Excites You

Anxiety often fixates on the worst-case scenario. Shift your focus to the excitement of the trip. Why are you going? New foods to try, places to see, experiences to enjoy? Creating a list of things you’re looking forward to can help shift your mindset from worry to anticipation. For me I’m looking forward to the sunrise each morning over the hills and getting out of my standard “wake up and drive to work” routine. This will be the first time I’ve not had a work schedule in 20 years. 

9. Stay Connected with Loved Ones

A quick check-in with a friend or family member can be a great reassurance. 

Inside joke but I always text my best friends all you need is a snickers bar…maybe a Xanax. Knowing I’ll crush a snickers but I’m too afraid to ever take a Xanax. We probably got it from the “you’re not your self when you’re hungry” commercials. For my small group of friends, this phrase is like the Bat signal of a buddy needs some help.  I don’t have 10000 friends, but I’d cross oceans and kill for the 7 real ones I have. 

10. Know That It’s Okay to Take Breaks

Traveling can be overwhelming, and it’s okay to step back when needed. If you need a quiet moment, find a peaceful café, park, or even return to your hotel for a break. Pushing yourself too hard can increase anxiety, so listen to your needs. I’ll admit it, sometimes you just also need to let it out. A good cry can release oxytocin and endorphins, you usually feel better after.  I tend to reflect afterwards why, what caused me to hit that breaking point? Was I holding stuff in that should’ve been dealt with sooner? Or am I just burned out and fatigued? 

No shame in shedding tears

11. Accept That Some Anxiety is Normal

Feeling anxious before or during travel doesn’t mean something is wrong. It’s a natural response to new situations. Instead of fighting it, acknowledge your feelings, remind yourself that you are capable of handling challenges, and take things one step at a time. You’re human after all!

Final Thoughts

Travel anxiety doesn’t have to hold you back from incredible experiences.  Find your strength, lean on your support systems, put on your battle face and never stop improving your self.   

Today- as I spend some time near Camp Pendleton, in order to get me through another days worth of travel anxiety for tomorrow I remember and recited a mantra from the Bible loosely pirated from the Marine Corps and probably several movies. There’s some core principles I’ve learned over the years from my friends in the Marines that I’ll forever live by.

“Yeah, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil… because I am the meanest motherfucker in the valley”

Be mean in the face of your adversity, overcome your challenges and enjoy your travels! 

2 weeks till launch

Wow I can’t believe the culmination of almost a decade of dreaming, watching YouTube, planning, saving, delaying, making excuses and doing other trips to build up to this one is actually coming to life.

 I started looking into the PCT in 2016 after meeting an AT thru hiker on Mt Liberty in the White Mountains.   He wrapped the PCT the year prior and was doing the AT that year. Prior to that it had never crossed my mind to do a thru hike. I had hiked my entire life, explored any bit of woods I could with my dad, but camping or backpacking however was something very new to me.

Personally- I like sleeping in a bed, that’s probably what’s kept me from thru hiking.  But on top of that when it came down to the PCT or AT Ive always been more interested in exploring the west coast than the east. 

Liberty Springs Trail on the AT

My desire to explore the west coast stems from being from New England and trying the old let’s move to sunny California after engineering school thing. (Spoiler- it didn’t work out that’s how I ended up in NH)

When I was 27 I became curious about getting deeper into staying in the outdoors and honestly, I was bored with the hunting, fishing and surfing I had been doing since I moved to NH a few years earlier. 

Bored or just raining?

I was I’d say stuck between growing up and still wanting to be a kid.   I had a great education and a rewarding career.  I had just become a young engineering manager and was working on building oxygen lines and engine manifolds for companies like Space X, GE and P&W.

Ever fly on an Airbus A320 Neo? Each time I fly with JetBlue I’ll always think of how many of those engine manifolds my team built back then.  I remember assembling the first one with my coworker Andy and saying WTF!

BOS-SAN one of my most flown JetBlue routes

I was living in a small New Hampshire town at that time of less than 3,000 people and zero stop lights right on the lake.  Besides work, I’d spend mornings wake surfing, grill something up for lunch, take a nap and follow it up with a sunset wakeboard session.  Shits and giggles around the fire pit with the girlfriend and friends over some beers. 

Many would say ‘living the dream’.  

2015 Lake Winnisquam surf session

But outside of all the comforts there was still a desire to do more. To get back to man’s natural roots of just waking up with the sun, living that day on foot and going to sleep at night. It sounds lazy but it’s actually hard. I found myself getting more and more into the woods and spending more time backpacking and enjoying the little details of solitude and my gear.  

Making gear and tweaking gear, I find it’s very rewarding.

Did you know I can sew? Most people probably don’t. As an engineer though , making and tweaking things is just natural to me. Making the things you carry with you every single day better was even more natural to me.  And that’s really what started the desire to get more technical with my gear and then to start bringing it in the woods to actually use it.

Shout out to Nani- used her 1957 Singer 401A

2 weeks out!

Well, with that I just packed up my last couple of packages. Any changes to my gear I need to make now. Debating a fanny pack but I am probably going to skip it. I’m going to ship one of those boxes the day I leave with hopes my timing is right for Warner Springs. Mainly stuff I don’t want to carry initially. An ice axe is the main item. I won’t need it till San Jacinto but a nice resupply box with it will hopefully keep costs down and fill my empty stomach. Overall that will be my first main resupply after mile 75.

Next step…. Get to San Diego and figure out how to get to Campo. I hear there’s a bus?